“THE WALL”
SEPTEMBER 2008
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This September morning. In sepia. From the porch. Mist included, no extra charge.
SEPTEMBER 2008
Welcome, my friend…
Ah, lovely September. There’s still a couple weeks left of my favorite month. We had our first frost last night, but the days have been warm and filled with sunshine. In the mornings, as the legions of geese go honking by, I see a plume of white smoke coming from my neighbor’s chimney. Haven’t fired up the woodstove yet, but the wood is stacked in the shed and it won’t be long now.
The trees began turning in early August this year and probably will not peak for another month. A walk around the property smells like blackberrys, hay, and apples (looks like a good crop this year). Monarch butterflies dance across the fields with deceptive speed. Each day, another field of corn gets harvested.
Did I mention this is my favorite time of year? True, I would be even more excited had the Yankees made the playoffs, but I suspect I’ll find a team to root for.
In any case, I hope you enjoy this month’s feature on the concept of taking full responsibility. Quite simply, I believe that if you do not look within when dealing with any problem, you are looking in the wrong place and limiting your capacity for a truly cool life.
Finally, last month I hosted a free community call on the Foundations for Living A Very Cool Life. Over 140 people registered for the call (you can access the recording here), so I think I’ve struck a chord. I am hosting a free follow-up call later this month called The Common Barriers to Very Cool Living.
Details below and I hope you’ll join me.
Enough of my yakkin’… let’s boogie!
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Really.
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THE WALL
I live on a hillside. A large retaining wall stands at the mouth of my driveway. Constructed more than 30 years ago from old railroad ties, the wall is six feet high and ninety feet long. The wall bids me farewell when I leave and welcomes me home upon my return.
For the past two years, I’ve eyed the wall carefully, inspecting it with each pass. I could see that the relentless forces of gravity, water, and time were closing in on another victory. I knew the day was coming when the wall would surrender to the elements and the earth would fall into my driveway.
I also knew that replacing the wall would be a major undertaking. I’d recently invested in several home improvements and I did not have much left in the kitty for a landscaping project. However, in sudden and unexpected fashion, I attracted the funds for the project just days before a heavy rain caused the wall to give way. The timing of everything felt perfect. I hired a contractor to complete the job.
He and I agreed that work and payment would take place in stages. I wrote a check, and the next morning his crew arrived and got to work. Making good progress, a week later the second stage of the project was ready to launch. I wrote a second check. That was six weeks ago. No one has returned to work at my home since.
In short, my contractor–and my dollars–vanished. With each passing day, the situation occupied more and more of my thoughts. Accompanying those thoughts were some powerful emotions. Fear, resentment, frustration, and anger have all colored the spectrum of my reactions to the situation.
As the days grew into weeks, the intensity of these emotions built to a crescendo. Thoughts of my contractor filled my head as I lay in bed. Waves of anger washed over me as I entertained visions of visiting him at his home, Tony Soprano-style, letting him know that he’d messed with the wrong man. Often, I’d wake the next morning and begin my day by leaving him a stern warning of my intentions on his voice mail.
In my mind, he was dishonest, incompetent, clueless, and pathetic. And I could prove it — after all, I had the terms of the agreement written in black and white on the contract we’d both signed. Yet as the storm of emotions swirled within me day after day, there was an inescapable truth. All of my outrage had not added a single stone to the wall. Not only was my approach unproductive, but I was poisoning myself with my toxic thoughts. Something needed to change.
The foundation for a very cool life begins by taking full responsibility for your life. Now this probably sounds familiar, and in my experience, most people are willing to accept this idea. However, when it comes to living into this principle, somewhere we hit our personal wall — the threshold where it’s no longer my fault, it’s your fault. We hit a threshold of our willingness to accept responsibility and we look outside ourselves to find a cause for our unhappiness.
I’ve found that most people are willing to be somewhat responsible, or maybe even mostly responsible. But taking 100%, absolutely-no-exceptions responsibility? This is where things get tricky. We struggle with taking full responsibility for our lives because we’re conditioned to blame, complain, and make excuses. However, I believe that the willingness to be fully responsible for everything in your life is the single greatest factor that separates an ordinary life from an extraordinary one.
In order to live the coolest version of your life, you must begin to see everything that touches your life as a perfect reflection of the thoughts, feelings, and energy you are sending out to the universe. Trying to argue whether this is statement is 100% true or engaging in debates regarding exceptions to the rule are distraction of the ego that only keep you distant from your true power. The point here is not to attempt to control or understand every event that shows up in your life, but rather to accept responsibility for how you respond to the events of your life.
For example, I failed to take full responsibility in my situation with the contractor. In my mind, I had met my end of the bargain. Clearly he was at fault. Clearly, he was to blame. By approaching the event with this mindset, unconsciously I was taking on the role of the victim. I was the innocent fly who got snagged on a strand of the spider’s web. In that critical moment of choice, instead of coolly choosing to free myself from the single strand, I allowed the rush of my emotions to seduce me into thinking that fighting the spider was a better idea. However, by thrashing about in fits of fear and anger, I quickly found myself completely entangled and exhausted. Easy prey indeed.
When we live in a world where things happen to us, we live as victims of our circumstances. In this place, we become the puppets that allow the people, forces, and events around us to pull the strings of our lives. In my case, I gave a complete stranger and an inanimate pile of stones a great deal of power over my life. As ridiculous as this sounds, I’d wager heavily that somewhere in your life, you’re operating in the same manner.
If you want to know where your personal wall to taking full responsibility for your life lies, notice where you feel a charge or a reaction to someone or something (e.g., money, a family member, the fool who cut you off in traffic, etc.). As you notice the feelings that come up, notice the thoughts that accompany those feelings. Now notice that those thoughts are directed outward, at something or someone else. Finally, notice that those thoughts do not feel good. Understand this is what you are choosing for yourself. In turn, understand that this is what you are creating for yourself. Not cool.
If you’re waiting on a person, situation, or the world to change before you can allow yourself to feel better, best of luck to you. The smarter move is to put your focus on the one thing that’s truly in your control — how you feel. By changing how you feel, you immediately align yourself with your desires and eliminate the resistance that keeps those desires from manifesting.
My retaining wall still isn’t built. But since flipping this switch, I’ve been able to talk to my contractor and converse with him from a place of compassion instead of anger. I can see that he’s just a guy doing his very best, just like me. And by choosing to respond to the situation from a more peaceful place, I live in the knowing that somehow, someway, someday, the wall will stand, tall and solid as a bunch of mortared rocks.
UPDATE: My contractor magically returned to work yesterday. He hit a rough patch in his life. In our conversation, I found it unusual/interesting when he made the remark that I was his only customer who ended up taking a hit.
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Just like the lighting on this one. P-Nut to boot.
Attractionville.com = Practical Attraction.com = Now Live
Several years ago, when The Secret was still a secret, I created a community website full of resources on how to live into the Law of Attraction. After creating many, many hours of content and information and dealing with too many technical issues, I let the site go fallow. However, I always intended to upgrade the infrastructure, as I believe the materials are excellent.
Inspiration took hold last month and the Attractionville site is now reborn as Practical Attraction.com, all running on the WordPress platform now.
Check it out if you’re interested in that sort of thing.
(And if you’re a previous member of Attractionville, the new password for the member’s area is simply the old login.)
>>> BOOKS <<<
too many books, too many magazines
>>> MOVIES <<<
- The Business of Being Born – Read into our movie choice what you will, but this was a fascinating look into the choices we make regarding how children enter the world. Worth a look, for sure.
- The Wire (Season 4) – Still loving this series. Put it in your queue. Karin is hooked as well, so it ain’t just for dudes.
- The Dark Knight – Actually made it to the theater to catch the blockbuster. Liked it. Can’t say I loved it.
>>> RANDOM NEURAL FIRINGS <<<
- Waaay more shaved head/bald guys out there nowadays. Noticed this in the airport on recent Denver trip. Shaved my head 12 years ago. Stood out. Now, not so much. Just sayin’
- New Rule: If someone (like me), prefers not to be on the dancefloor at a wedding, please don’t keep waving us on, encouraging us to “join the party.” We’re fine just where we are, thank you.
- I want one of these to park on my property.
- Rented a VW Rabbit when in Denver. Smallest car I’ve ever driven. While I found none of the German-made controls to be intuitive to my brain, I liked the ride.
- I just turned 39. This is my last year to get my act together and be nominated by a local Chamber of Commerce for one of those “40 under 40” awards. But seriously, it does go fast, doesn’t it? Seems like just yesterday I was the young buck in the field… No more.
Okay… One more photo…
Took this shot in Boulder, Colorado a few days ago. Don’t know these kids. They were just playing in the water, trying to guess where it was going to shoot up next. They caught my attention because they knew how to have a good time.
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Hi Drew,
My husband and I watched The Business of Being Born two days before Jonas was born. What I got from it was that women shouldn’t be afraid of having the birth they want for themselves. Many women have given their power over to the medical establishment when having their baby and the medical system preys on that. They want to be in control with all their machines and routines. I became educated as I wanted to create an environment of peace and tranquility when I birthed my baby. I held in my mind how the birth would transpire and it unfolded as I imagined it. The doctor thought…oh she’s a first-time mom and 43 years old…we’ll have to intervene, etc. Well, I had my baby without any medication with the loving assistance of my husband and doula. Jonas really birthed himself, I was there as a bystander. My body simply knew what to do, I just had to let go to let it happen. It was the most beautiful experience I’ve had in life. I was so high off the natural hormones, it was love at first sight. Glad you enjoyed the piece.
All the best to you. Mary Ann
Dear Drew,
We are grateful to you for writing your article called THE WALL. It was fun to read, but what I like most is how transparent you were at sharing how you hit your wall. A colleague and I were just talking about appreciating leaders and coaches who show up authentic, and then right after that we read your article. We both commented, “Well there’s someone who shows up authentic!” Thank you so much for sharing such an important experience and dynamic for all of us to learn from. ~Really great article.
Blessings,
Susan
Clearly the universe had a lesson in mind for you Drew as well as your contractor. Without the connection between both of you, we might not have this article to read this month. Everything that happens has a purpose.
Just as an aside, I am remodeling my bathrooms and don’t have time to tile them. One of the guys I work with is going through a “patch” with the current state of the economy. So I did my part for the universe and contracted him to tile my bathrooms. Paid the first installment, all was well. He hit me up for the second installment before finishing the second phase of work. He had his hard luck story. As hesitant as I was to pay him early, I figured I will get back what I give, so I wrote a check. Came home today only to find no work had been done. Sigh!!!!!!!!
5 MINUTES !!!!!!
picture on pearl street – 5 MINUTES from my house !
i’m just sayin……..
sigh
Watching business of being born? Care to make an announcement? 😉
Hi Mary Ann —
clearly you had a plan before you watched the movie… bet seeing the movie so close to your delivery got you excited!
anyway, i just really enjoy movies (or books) that taken on the conventional way of looking at things, and support them with solid evidence.
my mom taught Lamaze classes for years… i remember helping her with making charts and such as a little boy. i’m starting to stray, so i’ll just say that i very much resonate with the idea of natural childbirth… as far as that goes, i believe in “natural” everything
🙂
thanks and congrats!!
d
hi Susan —
thanks so much for the warm thought… while i do not spend a lot of time writing about it, i have very strong feelings about coaching and the future of coaching. in most ways, i find myself out of the coaching community… there’s not a group i really resonate with any more…
anyway, if there were a group of coaches who wanted some advice, i would offer this: be yourself…
of course that sounds trite, i know… but too many coaches believe that their job is to be perfect, or to have all their shit together — when it’s really a facade to try and be that…
my job isn’t to be perfect (man, that’s a relief), it’s to be me… and what i am good at as coming into someone’s lie with a clear eye and showing them where something is out of place.
anyway, that’s what i think allows authenticity… moving from the fear of what people think or expect of you…
in any case, i very much appreciate your warm note and the nice compliment!
warmest,
d
hi Ken…
yes, it feels like i’ve been going to school on this one, for sure…
i’ll make one more point here that comes to mind…
very often i’d be cool with the wall and its state of incompletion… but then we’d have a guest of family over to the house, and they’d ask, “hey, what’s up with the wall?”
and right away, i’d get hooked in… i’d moan and groan, complain, take shots at the contractor… just because it was an easy habit, a way of making conversation and relating.
in other words, i let other people influence my reactions and the way i felt…
just another place (watch out for it) where i was not taking full responsibility…
watch out for it!
and thanks for the comment,
warmest,
d
grace —
next time! 🙂
ate a nice place called “leaf” btw…
warmest,
d
jules –
will take this opportunity to announce that there is nothing to announce.
thank you.
d
🙂
Hi Drew,
Great story–as usual! Just wanted to clarify your last statement. When you say you were the only of the contractors customers who “ended up taking a hit”, does that mean he was able to finish/continue working on the rest of his customer?
Just wondering if that’s what you meant by “taking a hit”. If so, my first thought is, of course, about the lesson in that–which of course you know!
Thanks as always! Take care!
hi Cheryl —
yes, he told me he was able to finish everyone else… just me that got squeezed…
and yes, i mentioned it because it hit me square between the eyes. i just laughed when he said it.
message received!
thanks,
d
But what if the wall never got finished? In my life the story would have (likely) gone like this: contractor doesn’t come back, eventually I reach him and complain. He says he will finish it when he can. He never finishes it and I see him and complain again. He then states that because of my attitude or some other bull that he will not even try to finish it. I tell him to F off. Why can’t people just do what they promise to do? What is so hard about that? It’s great to be mellow and cool and all that but it is hard to do when people seem to stay up late figuring out ways to screw you over. I’m sure that some of it is my fault but not all of it. Any ideas?
hey stan —
great question. will do my best with it…
first, just so you know, my wall is not done. in fact my contractor told me he already spent my $ on another job… if the wall we’re done and i was just looking back, sure it’d be easy to be cool, but that’s not what i’m talking about here…
i tried the complain and get angry route. several times. wasn’t working. just getting me pissed off. i decided to stop shooting myself in the foot.
your words explain it perfectly… you say… “in my life the STORY would have been…”
now where i come from, the story you tell yourself is the story you create…
i was telling a story where this guy was going to screw me. and so he was…
i decided to change the story… right now it’s something like this… “my wall is finished, it’s beautiful, and i am thrilled with how everything came out…”
is this the reality now? no. does this feel 100% true to me? no. but can i picture it? can i tap into what that would feel like? yes. yes i can. i have to reach for it, but i can.
and when i do, this feels like a much better place to be, to live from. and i live in the FAITH (yes, faith) that by my living in this cool place, the world bends to my desires…
i have a lifetime of evidence to back me up, so it’s not such a stretch for me. i live in FAITH…
in short, if i may intent and my energy is clean, this is what i create in my life. no matter what. no matter who is involved.
final point…
in your second to last sentence you make the point of my whole article…
you say “i’m sure that SOME OF THIS is my fault but NOT ALL OF IT”
my 2 cents is that you gotta take it all on, stan…. all of it… even when it doesn’t make sense. even when it seems like it’s the other guy, or the economy, or whatever…
this is what few people are willing to do… and this is why few are able to tell the magical tales of how their walls got built in a manner that defied all logic and exceeded all expectations…
hope that makes sense/is clear…
great question…
d
Drew – I really appreciate your prompt reply. I’m going to try to put more faith in my life and take more responsibility for my situations – both good and bad. Finally, I’m also going to try to live my life from a “more peaceful place.” I appreciate your time and effort – Thank you.
you’re welcome, Stan… glad you got something from it…
d